“They say your life flashes in front of your eyes just before you die. That death must be to a life of no purpose, because I have never felt more alive.”
As a young adult, I lived life in the freedom of cultural norms- rebuking the commands of my Almighty Father. Quite frankly, I felt that submission to Jesus Christ as Lord of my life was far too monumental of a request. I was a lukewarm Christian temporarily comforted through a full portion of my fleshly desires with a scoop of Jesus when the chocolate cake wasn’t available for dessert. Constantly seeking fulfillment centered around myself, others, and circumstances, I often felt left with a glass half empty. It wasn’t until my perpetual plan delivered me to my rock bottom that I made a decision to become…Saved.
I’d love to say that it was this miraculous moment for me, but that would be far from the truth. It has been nothing short of a journey. In the midst of my hardship, I asked Jesus to come into my life as my Lord & Savior, but then I found myself wondering what that actually meant. I faced questions like: “Who are you, God? Who is Jesus Christ? Why would you send your Son to die on the cross for me? What is the Holy Spirit? How could there possibly be three beings in one God?”
I presented each question to Him, and slowly, He revealed Himself to me. With every spoonful, I wanted more. I struggled with reading the Word, but gained understanding after requesting His assistance. The more I read, the more I was changed. The more I was changed, the more others noticed. The more they noticed, the more I was rejected. “WHAT? I give my life to you, Lord, and now the world is rejecting me?” Yes, but the fulfillment that I received from Him far exceeded the desire for their approval.
So, I have continued seeking Him. I was born again in Jesus Christ through water-baptism and the reception of the Holy Spirit. Since then, He has placed a Calling of purpose upon my life, and daily, I am able to take next steps. I find that His leadership is flawless and that my own has been treacherous. He has also revealed to me the principle of the Ascension of Commitment. The Holy Spirit has shown me how to ascend God into the position of Father, Lord of my life, and Helper. He has taught me how to honor Him in areas of family, career, and community. Lastly, but most importantly, I am an learning to descend myself- a process that I have had to repeat on numerous occasion.
Not all of my days since then have been glorious, but I am no longer bound by fear. Perseverance through hardship is delivered through embracing the Word of God received through the direction of the Holy Spirit alone. It has resulted in the fruits of blessing and an immeasurable intimacy with my Almighty Father. Even in the midst of my darkest moments, I feel His peace. I am strengthened by His power. I am protected. I am Saved. Forevermore, I choose to embrace this journey, not only as my testimony, but my divine purpose as His child: Revealing Him to other men and women in trial…Providing Our Worldly Emotions Rest in Jesus Christ.
“May the blessings often disguised as hardships forever be revealed to you.” – Amanda N. Razzano-Latham